My batch 160

The earth seems so small
Beneath my wings
The sky is gleaming
So happiness it brings

Few things we knew
Few things we lacked
The dream to fly
Was all we had

The words of our instructors
Buzzed in our heads
Our buddy is our manual
Wherever you tread

We mended our poise
With elegance and smile
We would touch the horizon
And fly in a while

The time has come now
But there is so much to learn
My heart is pounding
As I know its my turn

I'll fly through the clouds
And reach the sky
I'll speed along the wind
Whistling and high

Oh! Clouds here we come
Chasing the gleaming sky
Indigo gave us the wings
On 12th of July

I look back at my journey
What I wanted to be
I thank my instructors
For what I'll be.

I found her.....,,

The eyes were so deep that you could feel the agony, the pain and the anticipating apprehension of something beautiful. only the shine in her eyes were speaking that they wanted to be free, the smile veiled her anguish, the curvy thin lines primed to dimples so elegant. Each time someone asks her about herself she would shrug her distress and sighing deeply, would mumble indistinctly and smile on her own.
This girl, persuaded my thoughts towards her. She was disappointed yet optimistic as she was there with many others.

A tiny star
In a dark, so far

The eyes are bright
Like a silver light

Simply she sways.              
In your mind
And in grace.    
 
I wish she stays
The way she is
But its the world
Which sweeps and kills

Oh the pure soul
Bestow your blessings
Keep her untouched
With beautiful dressings

My perception changed when she came to me with a pearl earing in her hand, she gave me the earings saying that I should be wearing a small pearl according to the SOPs. I was wondering why she came up to me and bothered so much to buy me a pair of earnings. So that was it, the instigation o f new friend, but it took me a while to realise the favour and finally I thanked her(formal).


There is always More than one way to skin a cat, so I figured out the way, she was no any extraordinary, bizarre soul. I discovered a new girl, all my thoughts, my views, perseverance wiped off, they say "A rising tide lifts all boats".

She has that power of a gigantic wave, the capability of influencing everyone, all she needs is a momentum to start and she'll never stop like a pendulum. I say she is simple yet special, her innocence can be less realised. Her simplicity is so angelic and radiant that she gives me a reason to think of a girl so beautiful.......
My hands don't stop writing about her............

It's you......

Today just when I was walking under the magnificent milky blue sky, the thought of being with you rushed through my eyes. Its not just the time I cherish being spent with you, Moreover its the world I rejoice, I comprehend each breath I take, the god who gave so much thought to my feelings and made you for me.

we are so different yet ,same is our love
You smile, I cry
You work, I sleep
You are so strong, me being sweet
You are sun and I'm the moon
You are day and I'm the noon
We are so different yet, the same.

We may not be together always, we might not see each other for long, but the bond we have keeps us perpetual forever. The fragrance of heavenly blossoms, the shine of a beautiful early sun, the sound of calm waves is our relationship. The passion of our love is addended by timeless faith, you gave me the affinity of all my life at once. I owe god this priceless life embellished with happy moments and everlasting joy. Worries seems so petite as you are with me. You are my vision, my thoughts, my soul. At times, I realise that we have so much to do in this short life, thousands of splendid dreams to be met, hundreds of responsibilities to perform yet our affiliation is so strong.

You mean so much more.........and more!!

The Happiness i answered........

happiness, yes it is!!

The one which we are always looking for.
Hit for it or we'll not see it even when it hits us between our eyes.
I felt uneasy: shouldn't i be doing something?something which makes me happy.
A series of thoughts crossed my petite mind: friends who worry about thing that has not yet happened, senseless conversations where you end up confronting each other, my acquaintances who torment themselves because there someone is not doing up to their expectations.

We dream of an ambience where our future was being taken care of, things were of great compassion, friends- with all their lives for us, a loving partner who would understand even slightest change in our cells, and so much more expectations.
We could either condolence our failures or pick up the tiniest lively moments of  lives, sigh of our worst times or grab upon the cheesiest steps from our past.
In pursuit  of happiness, we neglect our present and drill ourselves into the mechanism of futile attempts.

It appeared that happiness could be mine if i found the "right" person, thing, or situation.But in time I discovered these things only gave a temporary feeling of excitement, pleasure or fun. Soon, I turned my attention inward for answers. As i observed my thoughts, feelings, beliefs and choices I realized there was a deeper sense of well being and joy that existed within me and could be covered up or revealed, depending on type of thought or feeling I connected to.

Finally, a statement struct me.............."You are what you believe to be".
So what do i really think or believe?Instead of trying to prove that you're better than you think, just laugh........Laugh at your worries and insecurities.View your anxieties with humour. Some great people have differentiated between PAST-PRESENT-FUTURE, so why to saturate them, just live the present, with believe in yourself that happiness is not something for which i'll linger on to in fact its in me or it is me.
I am content with my world and didn't want it to change it all, even that i am being propelled in that direction.

happiness this way..........

O' Kind and good gracious
the lover of all
the compassionate you are
far way as a star 

i clicked you first
in my mother's eyes
you were so luscious
delightful and wise 

my friends reflected you
as you were all around
this world seemed so brightened
so clear to feel and astound 

the words of my holy being
gave me your sense
his love and warmth
were all your smirks so dense 

O' Happiness you have blanched
all time seems so rusty
where have you gone?
making the whole sigh empty 

but now i know, that
you are no where and still in me
my perseverance was all you
when i believed in me

I Call It Love..........

" a faraway land and a faraway dream

he promised me love of a spirited beam

they made their vows and took a step

in an unknown world for a tiny rep"

                                                                                             Ummi Mahouria 

my love-story begins with my beginning on this almighty earth . just when i glued out of my condensed life , i found my best friend.  He never gave up on me even when i was not there for him.our relationship transmuted from friendship to flirting.This was God's  perfect plan, he was steady, assertive, rigid yet allurer .Just in the time span of  4 months, our relationship shifted gears to a thoughtful, determined and deliberate relationship.I was in a no-win situation , where my studies, future and responsibility towards my family was at stake. I was so enchanted in his love that when i had to choose between him and the rest of the world ,i only saw him everywhere. We were in a stage where life only meant "me n you", we were in a state of intense longing of being together.

few words from him which i could never forget........!!                                                   Her touch sends thousand vibrations through my body.    
i fell myself as in heaven.                                                                        she has a  unique beauty that i feel myself.                                   captivated in her charm, i fell myself spell bound when i am with her.  
i can't take my eyes off her beautiful face                                                i've encountered lot of women in my life the've always asked me.......     "will you remember me?"
i said yes!                                                        
but the only woman i will never forget is the one who never asked........

                                          whom i call...."Shona"! 

                                                            with love Hiya 

                                                                        03 August 2008! 

the time was to figure out as "what does world have against love anyway!!".
The stinking thinking  of the society gave our story a 'filmy' turn.world was against our relationship, nobody stood for us and our relationship was in a crisis. It was crucial for us to take a decision, he was very clear in his mind -he wanted us to be together at any cost but i was perplexed and confused as never before. Our words were going to change our bonds and our lives till the end of time. In a second of a time our fate was written, words were on the move and we took a valiant decision-"Love Marriage". It was not easy for either of us to go this way but it was destined.


25th  OCTOBER 2008.........

the Nuptial knot was tied, we were there.....on the grand entrance of a new level of life.....like Shakespeare said  

" love is not love which alters when it alteration findsor bends with the remover to removeO,no!its an ever fixed markthat looks on tempests and is never shakenit is the star to every wandering barkwhose worth's unknown, although his height be taken"

the world  seemed beautiful like a sunshine after rain,it was all reds and pinks, without any reason the world was welcoming us, every person passing by had a shiny smiling face greeting us everywhere......it was like walking in the clouds of heaven, it was a real life dream come true. The feelings could just not take the words,we were in a bliss.

our relationship still work together as a winning team enriching each others life’s in a profound, meaningful way. Its been more than 3years of our marriage now but not a single day of regret, i owe him my whole life for being more than just understanding. My life has changed incredibly and i wish our love stays eternal forever.

ARMY SCHOOL SRINAGAR...........

Though each and everyday of r life is remarkable and memorable for us, but still there are some unforgettable memories which would always be at the back of r head i.e. our school days.
Stupid,innocent,honest, dumb, to be specific enough .. a chump and last but not the somewhat tryin to be studious..
our feet never went off the ground.we had time to make the life dance on our tunes, we never studied and Every one used to Bragg about their dare delivery and jovialness. But as usual, we never used to buy others crap.
we were notorious kids living in our own world, our parents busy passing on long sermons to us.....

Today, I crave to travel back in my same school days. The sharing of tiffins, quarrels over not helping out in the exams, punishment by teachers, kneeling down outside the class for the entire lecture, the care and love when someone used to get hurt whilst playing, the candies of canteen etc. I miss my mates from all within my heart, school premises, the playground and of course ..My teachers, whom I troubled a lot.These are the most memorable days of my life .. which will be at the back of my mind till I breathe the last breath of this eventful journey of life.